Thursday, October 6, 2011

Fighting What Is--Part 1


Byron Katie (an author and teacher) had a revelation years ago, that led her to an understanding of how we have the propensity to increase our suffering by the manner in which we react to events in our world. She makes the point that it is folly to get as upset about things that happen to us as we do, since we invest so much energy in fighting what is.

Here's a typical scenario that she describes: Something happens to me. I become disturbed by it. I wish it hadn't happened. In fact, I feel that it's not right that it happened; it's even wrong. I begin to fret and fuss about it. I may even get angry and very judgmental about it. As a result, I end up getting stuck on it and stewing about the event and the person who committed the perceived offense.

The incident may have been, for example, something said by a family member, or a co-worker, or a neighbor. It may have been some action on the part of the president, or Exxon-Mobil, or Wall Street bankers. They did something and I self-righteously judged it to be wrong, and then put energy into getting angry over it. When I do this I have stiffened up and am fighting what they did; mostly fighting the past. But if I respond in this way, I find myself getting stuck on wanting to change history. The event/action has happened, however. It simply is, and now I'm foolishly engaged in a battle with the past—as though I believe I could change it.

In Katie's understanding, I have fallen victim to a chain reaction that can be repeated, again and again. When I fall into this trap, I allow my life to be diminished and manipulated by the disagreeable actions of others. The greater problem for me in the long run is not what they've done, but how I have allowed it to disturb my life. It’s not what they did that is the greater problem, it’s my response that has caused me ongoing grief. I have generated a story about it—why it shouldn't have happened, why I don't like it, why it disappointed me, why the other person shouldn’t be that way, what I want them to do to make me happy, what I think of them, what I would like to do to them, or what they deserve for their bad action. I get all churned up inside and obsess over the incident.

I show my foolishness in this kind of response in several ways: (1) I continue to be upset about the past, about something that has already happened; (2) I'm wallowing in anger, as I waste my energy on something that is impossible to change; (3) I'm allowing myself to become unhappy, as I project the cause of all my suffering onto the other person; and (4) I'm stuck in a story that blocks me from seeing the truth and prevents me from taking any positive and meaningful action to improve things. These are all of the kinds of suffering I cause myself when I don't like reality and find myself at war with it.

Is there a wiser way to respond? Is there a way to begin opening to the reality of what is, to accept it—even (heaven forbid!) come to come to love it? Yes, and that's what Katie calls "The Work". I won't go into the process here—she does it best, and she can be quickly checked out by an Internet search. I want to describe here some of the feelings and possibilities that I have experienced by trying the process.

Katie proposes four direct and simple questions that we may ask ourselves, when we are feeling angry and judgmental over what someone has done: (1) Is it true?, (2) Can you absolutely know that it's true?, (3) How do you react? What happens when you believe that thought?, and (4) Who would you be without the thought? These questions jerk us out of our usual oppositional response. They make us pause for a few moments, which gives us the space to inquire about what really may have happened, rather than the story that we've created. We are asked to put our energy into inquiry in her plan, rather than resistance to what happened.

More on The Work next time...

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